jenn

this is my little girl (daughter)  i held her in the palm of my hand when she was born, she weighed 3 lbs
she thinks it silly to have a blog cuz its too much work,,, o well, i  love her anyway :)
she lives far away in canada, she is mostly busy teaching grade 10,   dam i just barely got to grade 8
she must have gotten some of her moms smarts
i got shot over this little girl before she was ever born, or even conceved :)
her mother and i had decided we wanted to have a baby, but we were not married and before we could get married i had to get divorced from my first wife..
in the process of getting divorced , my wifes boyfriends brother , the brother of my wifes boyfriend, mistakenly thought i was trying to get my wife to come back to me. he didnt want to see his brother get his heartt broken so he decided he would eliminate the problem by killing me, wow that sounds pretty serious
well , yes it was serious, he intended to shoot me in the head ut ended up missing and shot me thro both legs and the srotum.
he was charged with attemted murder and ended up in jail, and recovered  quite well and went on to get married and have my little girl just as planned :)
i love her dearly and enjoy the times we have together when she comes to vist me at our farm in texas
















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why i cant write

several times in my life i have started to write my life story, i acturly started writeing a book about my life
but each time i didnt get veryfar into my lifes history before i stopped.
each time i got started i would get to a point where i couldnt write parts of my life because it would efect other people, i realized i new things that i could never put on paper because i knew things that would hurt other people. i think i first realized this when i was a teenager, and of course now that im 64 i know a lot more things about a lot more people that could do some damage
i even tried writing my lifes story, useing anonamus names and changeing the facts, to get around the touchy parts.
but for me, the whole point of writeing the story was to be honest and put it down the way it really was. there wa always things i wanted to say just to get it of fmy chest, but hell, i guess we all have to live with secrets about ourselves and others that we can never disclose
i have always had a thing about honesty,   not that i wouldnt lie, or cheat, or steel, hell , ive done all that eversince i can rememmber. i guess we all start telling little lies when we are kids
 the honesty thing that bothered me, and still does to this day is not being able to say things the way they really are, and say how u really feel about things
 i guess the best example is sex,  hell if u are going to be really honest about sex you are going loose out on a lot of good sex. i know this because  iwas honest about it, and i did loose out on a lot of it :)
when i was a teenager i thought sex was a nasty thing tht everybody wanted to do, so being honest about it when i was with a girl and got a little horny i would ask her if she wanted to do it, of course she would say no, and i would walk away cuz i thought when she said no, she ment no. mam i pissed off a lot of girls ,lol.
it wasnt just my teenage years either, infact, i still do the same thing today, although i have learned to tell little lies and minipulate a little to get what i want.  if i only new then what i know now,:)
of course now that im almost 65 and my health aint no screamon hell, i dont need all that silly sex anyway
theres a perfect example,  who in there right mind would admit they have lost their sex drive ?  very dam few people, maybe its just because i dont have a very big ego, but acurly i just like to be honest about things,
well hell, lets face it, if i was completely honest about everything in my life i would be in jail or shot by a jealous husband
anyway i thought this blogging would be a way to put down all my thoughts, but , of course, none of us can ever do that and there always a lot of things that we simply have to live with

the bear story nobody heard

1960, 61, iw as liveing at the ccm ranch, haney,bc,canada, it was abys home, next best thing to reform school
there were about 10 guys liveing there/, with the house parents and counslers etc.  pretty nice place to be liveing , compared to reform schoolther was a lake , i guess about 10 miles from the ranch, lilawett lake, and the lilawett river ran from the lake to within a few miles from the ranch
we were all sitting around one night and somebody brought up a bout race to be held on the lake a few days latter.
one thing led toanother and next thing i knew i was betting the guys i could hike up the river to the lake, i was surprised the parents agreed to let me try it
i left the ranch after dinner hiked to the river and started up the river towards the lakewasnt long before it was dark and n the deep forest ther e was no light at all, so i curled up with my dog (pug) in my sleeping bag. i  remember thinking it was funny i wasnt afraid of the dark, i had always been fightened of the dark as a kid
i slept well all night, with pug at my feet inside the sleeping bag. i woke at daybreak and was amazed at the size of the tress around mei was deep in the forest and the evergreen trees were about 200 feet high, well at least 100 or more
we ate whatever we had in the lunch bag and headed off  for the lake, we hiked for awhileat times getting into the woods as we took short cuts anround the bends in the river.  we were a few hundred feet from the river bank when i heard a rumming in the rocks, pug heard it also, he groweled a little and went running for the river bank. i had no idea what it could be but there was definatly some rocks moveing in the river
we came out of the woods and about 100 yards or so from us was a hugh bear, digging in the rocks for squirls or whatever. pug stayed with me and was very quit, i guess he could sence my mood
amazeingly i was not scared, i stood and watched for awhile untill the big bear ( from what i have seen on tv,i would guess it was a grizzly) disapeared into the woods at the edge of the river.  there was a big bend in the river between me and where i saw the bear disapear,  around the bend of the river was a cliff about 100 feet high, i thought , if i go up the bank and around the cliff i would again see the bear when i got to the other side.  pug stayed right with me as i climbed up the bank and around the cliff, then we started down the bank towords the river on the other side of the bend, pug still at my heals
as we were going down the bank, in thick woods i head a slight noise behind me, i stopped and turned around, and about 10 feet from me was a bear,not moveing, just looking at me,  i grabed pug by his collar as he was  trying to get to the bear and im sure would be dead if i had let him go. it wasnt the big bear id seen in the river but a half grown cub, id say a yearling,  i was sure the big one was his mother and id heard many a story of mother bears with cubs.
now i was scared, i didnt move, just stared at him, then i yelled,,,get outta here, he never moved, then  i pick up a stick, yelled , thetened him with the stick and took one step towoard him. as i stepped towards him, he stepped towards me,,,,,,,i let go of the dog and the stick, turned and ran down that hill faster than i ever moved in my life, got to the river  bank and never thought twice  about the water, just cept on running , water was about tow feet deep but i dont think it even slowed me down, i was across the river and 100 yards thro the woods before i even looked back, didnt even look back to see if pug was comeing, i guess he could feel my fear and he was running in front m like he was the leader :)
when i did look back i never did see that bear again, he proberly didnt even come after me, i guess that was one of the scaryust few minutes in my life
we hiked the rest of the day and finally got to the lake, where i saw the most boreing boat race of my life
i dont remember when or how i got home , but i sure do remember those bears
funniest part of the story is, when i got back to the ranch i said lots about my trip to the lake and had proof that i had been there , but i never did mention those bears, i guess becuz i new nobody would ever beleave me:)
i was 15 then , i got married wwhen i was 21, and my first wife, laverne, was the first person i ever told that story to, im now 65, wounder if she is still alive, if u happen to know her , laveren , louise , groves, nee anderson, from bonnyvillealberta, please tell her to call me 940 641 0132 i called her funny:) i was beaver :)

john groves

the great pig hunt

been hearing about wild pigs since i came to texas in 81, never did see one, figured most of the stories were bs
about a year ago my neibour built a pig trap back in the woods, i heard neibors complaining about so many pigs around and all the damage they were doing, even had neibors as me to help catch them.  in that last few years i  one dead pig on the road and figured it had escaped from a farmer
so when we started out i figured there must be pigs out there somewhere,   after a year or so i was back thinking it must be all bullshit,  then i saw [ig roadkill not far from the farm, now i was beleaveing there were pigs out there but how could we have had a trap for a year and no pigs
well guess what,,,,,,,next day we had 3 pigs in the trap, sure was exciting to see them

another sleepless 2 am

i think us old farts jusr dont need all that much sleep anymore, i wake up most nights at 2 or 3 am and simpley am wide awake
took tylenal pm for many years now, they sure work well, more letting u sleep than makeing u sleep, but of course the down side is u get emun to them
ive been takeing them now for something like 15 years, took them for many years, every night, slept well, no hangover, didnt have to sleep if i didnt want to, but could fal asleep when i wanted to, could even watch a movie to the end if i got interested in a good one
after many tears i started to have bas dreams, nightmares,  then god told me he had bad dreams when he took pms
eventualy, i figured out the bad dreams were caused by the pms when u were getting emun to them because they didnt put u all the way to sleep, so, if i took one more ( 3 instead of 2) i would go all the way to sleep and have no dreams
over time ( years)  i  had to keep uping the dose till i was takeing like 5 or 6 pills every night, i dont know if u can take too many or what damage it might do but 5 pills a night seemed a little much to me, altho i never did feel like there was any side efects or problems, it just seemed like a lot of pills to be takeing everday , so i stopped
i was amazed that i could stop. figured i would be adickted after all the years, but it wasnt a problem, i just stopped takeing them and of course went back to the sleepless 2 am sindrum
didnt take any for a year or so, then a stared experimenting with them, when i sarted again i realized that it would take near as long to start haveing bad dreams, i few months, then i tried advil pms, and i discov ered, if i didnt take enough the dearms would come back, with one big difference,  advil would make me dream, if i didnt take that one more pill, but the dreams werer,,,,,,,,,good dreams,,,,,,,,i was amazed,  advil makes me deam just as tylenal does, but teylenal  makes bad dreams (nightmares)  and advill makes good dreams, some, real good dreams, if i was younger :) im sure they would be wet dreams
but of course, eventually  the pills just stop working and u need to take one more, and in the end u end up takeing 5 or 6 pills a night
i even tried swithcing form tylenal to advil when i got emun to tylenal and then back to advil, seemed to work but after awhile seemed like a big hassle, so now here i am back on the sleepless 2 am deal
now its 4 am , think ill go back to bed and see if maybe i can sleep a couple moree ours,
thanx for listening :)

brick horsehead

i dont know who published this pic on the net, but i did the brickwork, whoever u are, thanks for posting the pic :)

johngroves

my wife wants to know what im doing
i cant tell her as i dont know

johngroves

ok, so where do i start?